Author name: Sandra Tayler

Experiment Week #5

Experiment Week #5 Experiment Week #5
The blue plant and the magenta plant finally decided to sprout. So far the colors on these plants are no different from the thriving control plant in the middle. I’ll continue to water in colors to see if it affects the colors of the eventual blooms.
Long shot on Experiment Week #5 Long shot on Experiment Week #5
This picture shows how tall the control plant gets. At the very top of the plant you can see some of the blooms.
Paperwhite blooms on the control plant week #5 Paperwhite blooms on the control plant week #5
This is a close up on the blooms of the control plant. You can see they are very white with orange centers.
Bulb Basket Week #5 Bulb Basket Week #5
This is the last picture I’ll be taking of the bulb basket. The quantity of blooms from this has been somewhat disappointing. I don’t think that the daffodils will bloom at all. It was interesting to try though. Perhaps next year I’ll put some tulips in the basket and see how they do.

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Birthday Report

For my sixteenth birthday I went roller skating with a group of friends.  Then we all went home and had a slumber party.   It amuses me that for my 34th birthday I went roller skating and then I came home to my brother’s house for a slumber party.  The slumber party even had the requisite hyperactivity (from the children) and abundance of laughter (from the grown ups.)  We didn’t spend half the evening on the phone calling boys, which was a required activity for teenage girls, but I don’t really miss that part.  

I like rollerskating.  I like it enough that I’m tempted to get my own pair of roller skates so that I don’t have to suffer from the roller rink potluck.  On the other hand, how often do I go skating?  I’ve gone three times lately, but I don’t know if that pace will keep up once the weather warms up.  Our sidewalk is sufficiently bumpy that I don’t think I’d enjoy skating on it as much as on the smooth rink.  Skating is good exercise.  I need to be getting more exercise, but it doesn’t have to be skating.

The remainder of my birthday included balloons, streamers, presents, candles, and a nice dinner at a restaurant.  The dinner was provided by Howard.  The rest came courtesy of my sister-in-law.  I think that the last time I had balloons and streamers for a birthday party, I was 9 years old.  It was fun.  Howard felt guilty that he hadn’t done more advance planning for my birthday.  But honestly he didn’t need to do any more.  He demonstrated through words and actions (and vocalized guilt) that he really loves me and wants my birthday to be a happy event.  I got to get out of town to a place where I didn’t have to plan my own birthday party.  It was fun.  I don’t know if we’ll do my birthday this way again, but for this year it was perfect.

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Birthday Story

Today is my birthday. It is also Lewis Caroll’s birthday.  Over the past two years I’ve developed a livejournal tradition of posting a story or imaginative essay here to commemorate both events.  The first two such entries can be found here:  http://sandratayler.livejournal.com/59852.html and here: http://sandratayler.livejournal.com/127561.html.  For this year I wrote a little story it is kind of a rough draft, but I’ve run out time to edit:

“You can’t get rid of that!”  hissed the diamond-eyed demon from his perch on Jodi’s shoulder.  “What if you need it later?  Besides, Aunt Beth made that had for you.  You can’t get rid of something that Aunt Beth made!”

“But it’s an ugly, lumpy, poorly made hat.”  The pallid demon coughed out from Jodi’s other shoulder.  “You’ll never wear it.”

Aunt Beth made it just before she died.”  hissed the first demon.

Jodi sighed and returned the hat to the drawer where it had spent the last 10 years.  The diamond-eyed demon cackled with glee and gyrated it’s green body in a victory dance.  the other demon sagged even more limply and surveyed the cluttered room with resignation.

Oblivious to both the rejoicing and despair, Jodi creaked to her feet to answer the doorbell.  Both demons settled in for a nap.  They weren’t much interested in visitors, unless the visitors also brought gifts.

“Thank you so much for coming Tricia!”  Jodi said as she opened her door to an older woman with greying hair.  “I tried to get some done before our appointment, but I can’t even see where to start.”

Tricia’s eyes flickered to the demons on Jodi’s shoulders as she spoke.  “Jodi, it is my job to help people get organized.  We won’t have any trouble at all.” The demons rustled uneasily.  It was almost as if this Tricia could actually see them.

“I thought we could start in my bedroom.”  Jodi said as she turned to lead the way upstairs.

Quicker than a cat, Tricia’s hand snaked out and snatched the green demon by it’s wings.  It barely had time to blink before she dropped it into her purse and zipped the purse shut.  

“Excellent idea.”  Tricia responded as she tucked the purse under her arm.  The diamond-eyed demon’s howls of protest were muffled by the layers of faux leather.  Tricia looked around the cluttered bedroom.  Her eyes lit upon the hat.  She strode into the room and picked it up. “Let’s start with this.”  She declared.  The pallid demon sat up with interest.

“That’s the hat my Aunt Beth made for me right before she died.”  Jodi said dutifully.

Tricia pinned Jodi with her eyes.  “Do you wear it?”

“No.”

The pallid demon remembered his duty and repeated his earlier mutter.  “It’s an ugly, poorly-made hat.”  

The other demon shrieked from the depths of the purse, but it was impossible to discern any words.

Tricia raised an eyebrow.  “Do you even like the hat?”

“You hate the hat.”  hissed the pallid demon frailly.

“No.”  Jodi mumbled.  “I’ve never liked it much.”

“Then we get rid of it.”  Said Tricia firmly as she tossed the hat into the large empy box labelled Goodwill.

The pallid demon on Jodi’s shoulder sat up straight.  It focused it’s intent gaze upon the new ally, Tricia.  A slow grin began to appear on the demon’s face as item after item went into the Goodwill box.  From within the depths of Tricia’s purse, the wail of the other demon grew increasingly frail.

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Princesses and Prince Charming

I was sitting in my brother’s living room when Gleek and her four year old girl cousin came prancing into the room.  They were all decked out in princess gear complete with dresses, tiaras, and wands.  Patches followed along on all fours wearing his normal clothes.  I listened as the two girls spun a story about how they were the most beautifullest girls ever.  Then they went to a ball in the kitchen to meet the prince.  There was a brief effort to press Patches into service as the prince.  He didn’t want to be a prince.  He wanted to be a puppy.  He was quite adamant about being a puppy.  Confronted with the prospect of a barking, panting prince, the girls decided to make do with an imagined prince.

I listened to see how they would solve the problem of a single prince for two princesses.  I expected them to conjure a second prince into existence, but Gleek just declared with a wave of her hand that the prince just married both of them.  Apparently Prince Charming is a polygamist.  This would explain why he features in so many different fairy tales.  Won’t Cinderella and Snow White be surprised when they find out?

The obligatory ball-and-wedding having been dispensed with, the two princesses and their puppy trooped back downstairs to do other princess things.  Poor imaginary Prince Charming was abandoned in the kitchen like the prop that he was.

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Jumble

My head is full of thoughts, but most of them are related to a task list rather than thoughts than I can spin out into elegant prose. It’s kind of a shame. I like it when I write well. Those are the entries that I really enjoy re-reading. But today my head is much too full of laundry and no matter how beautiful the clothes are, when they’re all crumpled together in a pile they’re just laundry. Hmm, that analogy really works because I’m sure that if I can pick out some of my thoughts and shake the wrinkles out they’d probably be beautiful and profound, but right now they’re all jumbled into a heap. What is it about laundry baskets that the one item of clothing that you really want disappears into the middle of the mass never to be seen until you finally cave and just fold everything in the basket? Would that I could pick all my thoughts out one by one, fold them neatly, and then store them away. I could have a whole dresser full of story ideas just waiting for me to pull them out. Another dresser could be full of thoughts on parenting. But alas my brain is very like my house right now. It looks like someone turned it upside down and shook it.

Tomorrow we leave for my brother’s house. The kids are excited. I’m glad. Howard is stressed because he feels like he didn’t get enough done this week and now he is out of time. Howard rarely feels like he got enough done even when he has scripted, pencilled, and inked an entire week of comic in one day. This week he has done enough to hold the buffer steady which is good. But we’re both feeling pressure to get the next book moving. This trip to Pocatello negates the possibility of doing any work on the book this week. I feel bad for messing up Howard’s work schedule, but not bad enough to cancel the trip. It’s been ages since I went anywhere for my birthday.

Since we’re departing tomorrow, today was meant to be a day of house cleaning. I’m having trouble getting moving on that. I seem to be low energy and distractable today. It may have something to do with my diet. I’ve been cutting out junk food and adding more vegetables. I think my body is protesting the change. Or maybe it’s an after effect of too little sleep for much of the week. When I’m seriously short on sleep my body goes into a high-energy crisis mode where I’m really effective. I can only pull it off for a day or two before I crash. There are some other factors involved too because sometimes when I short myself on sleep I can’t function well the next day. I got enough sleep last night which may have signaled my body that we were out of crisis mode and thus it could start demanding even more rest. Hopefully I’ll be able to kick into gear this evening because I’d like to be able to come back to a clean house rather than a jumbled one.

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Reprioritizing

In November life around here was pretty stressed. We were getting ready for the launch of the second Schlock book and business concerns reigned supreme. There were lots of little sacrifices of family time to feed the engine of business. In December we eased off on the business stuff and put the family stuff back in. It felt so good that we did the same for most of January as well. Unfortunately this has now put us behind our intended schedule for the next Schlock book.

Just this week I have made contractual negotiations with an artist to illustrate my children’s book. Creating this book is going to take 3 months of emailing to discuss the pictures. I am thrilled about this project. I am overwhelmed by this project. It is breaking new ground for me and I’m nervous. There is so many ways for this to go wrong and just as many wonderful ways for it to go right. I’m tempted to go babbling to Howard with every care and concern about this project, but I have realized that if I do so I’ll be taking up the space in his brain that he needs to put toward creating his book. Since Howard’s books are the ones that pay our bills, I really need to not interfere with their completion. In fact I need to get my head back on straight and aid an abet the completion of the next Schlock book.

Being more focused on helping Howard get his next book out does not mean abandoning my projects. I just need to make sure that my projects stay out from under his feet. I also need to make sure that my projects do not interfere with the daily getting-things-done that is necessary to keep life running smoothly. Oh but I want to just ignore laundry and dishes and children to chase the shiny project. I mustn’t do that. I need to keep everything moving.

I just realized something. I always have a project in process. The type of project varies greatly from “keep the house perfectly clean” to “writing a story” to “planting a garden” to “teaching Gleek to read.” Right now I’m enthusiastically chasing this book project, but I’m also trying to psyche myself up to be really excited about facilitating Howard’s book. It’s working.

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The Other Side

I’ve entered contests before. Just last year I entered a blog writing contest where I had to write a blog on the contest’s topic. I was dancing on clouds when I was chosen as a finalist. Then when I didn’t even place, I cried. I tried very hard not to base my feelings of self worth on that contest lost. Eventually I picked up, moved on, and it no longer hurts anymore.

Today I was on the other side of that experience. Thirteen artists submitted pictures in hopes of being selected for my book project. At first I was delighted and flattered that so many people would care to work with me. So many people looked at a few lines of text and trusted that the rest of the book would be good. Each set of pictures was accompanied by an email filled with hope. I realized that each of these artists was in the same position that I was in with the blogging contest. Each hoped to be selected and have their art reaffirmed. I exchanged several emails with some of the artists. I came to know them just a little. In the end, only one artist could be used for the book. I had to write 12 emails which I knew would disappoint the recipients.

The judge in the blogging contest rambled for several sentences about how difficult it was to choose and how she wished she could choose everyone. As one of the unchosen, I felt like she was just being polite. But now I know she was telling bare truth. It is hard to choose. I wish I could choose everyone. Each of the artists who submitted was fully capable of illustrating a children’s book. There were things that I liked about every one of them. In the end, one set of images just clicked with me and with the spirit of the story I wrote. This does not mean that the other submissions were faulty. They just didn’t click for me as strongly as the one artist I selected.

This coming Friday Howard will be blogging about all of the artists who submitted. Hopefully this will send some exciting projects in the direction of the artists. I see no reason that everyone can’t win from this. I now have contacts with artists and writers both. Hopefully I can help facilitate connections between the two worlds.

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Choosing Dreams

From 1985 by Bowling for Soup

Debbie just hit the wall
she never had it all
one prozac a day
husband’s a CPA
her dreams went out the door
when she turned 24
only been with one man
what happened to her plan?
She was gonna be an actress.
She was gonna be a star..
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The lyrics go on to describe how Debbie is fixated on 1985 because she feels like that is the last time that her life was good. The song is amusing, but every time I feel sorry for Debbie. Not because she has failed to achieve her dreams, but because she fails to recognize the dreams she has achieved. What happened when Debbie was 24? Somehow I doubt anyone forced her to get married and settle down. It was her choice. She must have chosen it because part of her wanted to be married and have kids. She dreamed of being an actress, but she also dreamed of being a mother and having a home. She chose the second dream and is now making herself miserable by forgetting why she chose the path that she did. Why is she dwelling on old, lost dreams when she can be creating new ones?

Some people are caught in traps that are not of their own devising. But most of us aren’t trapped at all. We only think that we are. Sometimes I feel hemmed in by all the responsibilities of being the mother of four kids. I feel oppressed by the endless stream of dishes, laundry, and housework. I feel exhausted by the demands that the business makes on me. I feel worn out from the effort of stretching small amounts of money to cover a multitude of expenses. All of these things can make me feel trapped. But I am not trapped. I walked into all of these things with my eyes wide open. My eyes are not the only thing that is open. The door is right there. I can choose to walk out of here any time want to. I continually choose to stay where I am because to walk out from under these pressures would be to abandon many of my dreams. I would be abandoning people I love for things which ultimately have less value to me. Do I dream of success as a writer? Absolutely. But not at the expense of my family life. This means that I may never be a famous author. I’m alright with that because I am surrounded by the wonderful, exhausting dreams I have chosen instead.

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Winter Garden Week #4



Experiment week #4 Experiment week #4

As you can see, the control plant has continued to thrive. The blue plant has lost what green it had. The magenta plant continues to do nothing at all. But when I touch the bulbs on the other two, they aren’t mushy which means they’re probably not dead yet. I’m going to give the colored bulbs one more week to try to grow, then I’ll pull them out and repot them in non-colored soil to see if they are truly dead or if they can be salvaged. So food coloring does not make plants happy.

Bulb Basket Week #4 Bulb Basket Week #4

You can see a few of the first flowers. Several more clusters are beginning to send up flower stalks. The daffodils continue to sit not doing much. The flowering plants are grape hyacinths. Outdoors they are a very dark purply-blue. These ones are a beautiful pale lavender. I suspect that the lack of direct sunlight is what is affecting the color of the bulbs.

In the far left of the picture you can see some of the poinsetta plant that I mentioned yesterday.

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Many small things

I got to go rollerskating with my kids yesterday. It was as much fun this time as it was last time. I was just feeling warmed up and enjoying myself as it was time to go. The kids didn’t want to leave so soon, but Kiki had to get ready for an overnight edventure at the Christa McAuliffe Space Education Center. Rasinfish was along for the rollerskating and she got a tour of the space center as well. She agrees with me that it is an incredibly cool thing to have available for kids. Patches went with us and delighted in crawling into all the bunk spaces and up ladders and down stairs. This morning I left Patches behind when I retrieved Kiki. He realized what I’d done and was very sad that he didn’t get to go play in the space ships some more.

Yesterday for lunch I got to visit with my friend Julie of Mental Tesserae. We’ve known each other for years, but we don’t get together often. We’ve been much better about keeping in touch since we discovered that we both have blogs. It was fun to sit down with her and talk about the experience of blogging. As a side note, I have decided that I’m going to have to use the word tesserae in a story sometime. It is too interesting a word to leave lying around unused.

I have flowers blooming in my house. Several of the grape hyacinth bulbs I planted have begun to bloom. None of the daffodils are blooming yet. But my african violet has decided to send up a lone little bloom. I think the violet needs to be repotted. I also have a poinsetta in full bloom. Poinsettas tend to be tricky plants. I can never keep them alive, so I never buy them. But as I was walking out of a garden center on January 2nd an employee handed me the pot and said “here, it’s free.” So now I have a poinsetta with two stalks of beautiful red blooms and a third stalk which has withered away. I expect the other two stalks to join the first soon, but for now I have bright red flowers.

Patches came up to me today with a little grin on his face. “Mom, why did to boy throw the butter out the window?” Thinking that this was one of his odd, but serious questions I answered that I had no idea. He replied “Because he wanted to see a butterfly.” Patches told me a joke. He’s not even 4 yet and he already successfully pulled off a joke. He was so pleased with himself that he immediately started on a second one. “Why did the boy throw the bread out the window?” I answered that I didn’t know. “Because he wanted to see…wait.” Patches’ brow crinkled as he realized that applying the same formula to the new word was not going to have the same effect. He sighed. “I don’t know.” But then we found something else to laugh about so it was all okay.

Next weekend I get to escape town altogether and go visit my brother’s family in Pocatello. Yay!

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