Cheerful
Howard called me on the phone.
“Hi hon!” I answered.
“You sound cheerful.”
“Why so surprised?” I asked upon hearing his tone of voice. Then in one of those thought cascades which take milliseconds to occur but much longer to describe, I tried to think of the last time I’d had a truly cheerful day. I rapidly came to the conclusion that Howard’s surprised tone was entirely merited and then pondered that this is somewhat sad. The train of thought leeched some of the unexplained cheerfulness from me even though I tried to retain it.
Cheerfulness occurs when my emotional stores are full and I have energy to spare. I’ve been spending a lot from both of those accounts lately. I need to remember how to make deposits and start doing it more regularly.