On Monday I’m off to the BYU Writing for Young Readers workshop. I’ll have the chance to pitch Hold On To Your Horses to two editors and an agent who will probably all say “No Thanks.” This is fine. But a piece of me whispers “What if.” I wish that part would shut up so that I wouldn’t be so nervous. I’m worried that I’ll fail when thrown into this unfamiliar social environment. I will not know anyone else there. Will I really be able to introduce myself to people and make contacts? I still remember vividly how at Penguicon in 2005 I was socially lost without Howard to guide me. I hope that I have grown since then. I hope I’ve gotten better at making conversation with strangers. I hope that I succeed at this. There is a little voice which is convinced that I’ll fail miserably. I wish that voice would shut up too.
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I hate that little voice. It’s so damaging. I’m going through that right now, as we’re trying to raise funds for our film. Best of luck! I’m sure you’ll do great! 🙂
Well, I certainly enjoyed spending time with you at Penguicon. I’ll admit I was somewhat the socially-lost type then too, though.